Crown Him the Lord of years,
The Potentate of time.
Creator of the rolling spheres,
Ineffably sublime.
All hail, Redeemer, hail!
For Thou hast died for me;
Thy praise shall never, never fail
Throughout eternity.
I stood on the precipice of 2020 unaware of what she held. Times have taught me not to anticipate what a new year will bring. Perhaps I am jaded from unfulfilled ‘new’ year expectations…Whatever the reason may be, I have learnt to let the year unfold herself and to live out the pages of my book as they are revealed to me.
Happy
I was happy in 2020. Which is difficult to admit because 2020! Yet I was happy, which made me uncomfortable. Why? Because I am unfamiliar with happiness. I have gotten so used to being sad, disappointed, down. That is familiar and therefore comfortable. But happiness? I remember having a conversation with a friend on how I do not believe we were created to be happy…that is how uncomfortable I am with this emotion. It is almost as if I was afraid that the moment I acknowledged my happiness, something would go wrong. Suspicious. I was suspicious of my happiness. But it ignored my founded suspicions and continued to be. I found happiness in simply being. In simply being me, Noni, with all my imperfections. I stopped being suspicious and surrendered to the embrace of happiness. I am happy!
Open
I describe myself as an open close book. An unplanned planned person. I have a general idea of where I want to go, but I don’t necessarily know the minute details of how I will get to my destination. When opportunities present themselves to me in a manner that seems different from what I pictured, I unapologetically turn them down. But not in 2020. I allowed myself to “follow the light” to opportunities that arose. I “followed the light” out of my comfort zone and I said “yes” a lot more than I said “no”.
Unapologetic
If you know me, you have probably heard me make this statement, “Either I have a lot of faith or extreme foolishness.” I stand by that statement. But I have stopped excusing my foolishness. I know my life doesn’t look how it is “supposed” to look. I am probably not doing what many think I should be doing. And even this, my love that is Mirror Wealth Coaching, looks like foolishness to some. And I am okay with that. I have accepted my path. I have accepted the fact many will not understand me or my love. And that is okay. Because I understand and accept it. I am okay with being foolish. I no longer make apologies for it, or try to dress it up in a way that makes it palatable for others. Life is too short to appease people. I have learnt to live for an audience of One. His approval is all the approval I need. And that is so liberating. It tastes likes freedom!
Grateful
For the highs and the lows, the laughter and tears, family and friends. I learnt that there is so much I take for granted. Breathing, walking, talking, loving, being loved, feeling, communicating. The little big things that make life easier.
“I will not complain!”
I had to repeatedly say that to myself when things were going awry, when I read the news, when I could not move freely…
Instead I chose to give thanks. In doing so I realized that gratitude is intentional. I choose to be intentional with it.
Surrendered
When He calls, I will answer
Where He leads, I will follow
Where He sends, I will go
His book I am living out
His love is in my heart and in my hands,
His Words are my light
His Spirit is my guide, my home, my comfort, my refuge, my stronghold
For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes…
Romans 1:16 (NIV)
Crown Him
He is already crowned with many crowns. But I sing “Crown Him” because I choose to intentionally surrender to the King of kings. I choose to crown Him as King and Lord of my life.
I pray you will do the same.
Happy new year!
May 2021 be all that God has written just for you.
God bless you!
All hail the pow’r of Jesus’ name!
Let angels prostrate fall,
Let angels prostrate fall;
Bring forth the royal diadem,
And crown Him, crown Him,
crown Him, crown Him;
And crown Him Lord of all!